Tuesday 27 July 2010

season 3 (feat. nek taib occay)

Assalamualaikum,

tadaaaaaa.

DSC_0834 (1)ko ada mukak season 3 terus pose2 muka gaok bermotif ngeso rambut kach! oon jak ada tauu. (matilah loar bisak)

mundak tek dah nak nang nak nutup dah miak nama oon. tapi ngenang bah. nek taib sanggup turun di kota london ngadap oon, mujok oon iboh nutup. aoklahh nek taib!

hehehe. sikdabah. actually ku dpt emel lah dari sidak yayasan sarawak, Pehin Sri kita nak datang melawat student sarawakian di UK tok. so as miak kenak sponsor kerajaan serawak, haruslah aku turun london nak. mati ditarit balit scholar ku nak.

bukan apa pun nek taib datang, saja jak ngabas, berdialog ngan sidak serawak sitok. salu ku nagga nek taib, ku rasa xda papa. kali tok ku nagga nya rasa cam lain koh. nagga nya ala2 terubat indah rindu ngan serawak. nagga nya teringat waterfront, teringat kpg no 3, teringat indestrit, teringat hopoh, teringat ikan terubok. apakahh.

anyway, rindok juak koh, bukan rindok apa. berkumpol2 sama urg serawak, nang rindok aih. nengar kirik kanak urg kelakar serawak di london. rasa best jak koh. kakya tek tanpa ku sedari paduhal byk adik kakak ku di london tok. rindok eh. sampe balit reading aku ngelakar serawak indah ngan geng melaya.

DSC_0808aih rindokk atiii

DSC_0814ku xda bergambar ngan nek taib. engkah gamba sidak tok jaklah

DSC_0826ngan adek2 di london. aihhh aku paling tua kahhh?? dahlah ku down!

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nak ngucap mak kaseh juak ngan Farah ‘Podar’ Amami kerna spons tmpt tinggal sepanjang di kota london. diva sungguh berpuas hati dgn layanan yang diberikan. ayam panggang nyemsss uols. and you may not know this farah, that weekend was the most fun i had in these couple of months, nang leput ajak aku ngan olahan ko ya. thanx dear ngembak kmk melupak kejap feeling2 emo2. of koz memori abang sheffield and kak maxi dress harus kekal di dalam ingatan.

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farah london yerrr deh. farah, mak rasa nek taib mala nagga kitak. aihh apa gik! lumayan uolss!

anyway, dah aku ngenang balit nak, rasa sik cayak jak aku aku kat sitok, kat UK, kat london, rasa bulak eh. nang berterimak kasih benar lah aku ngan sidak yayasan koh. di kesempatan tok oon nak berterimak kasih lah ngan nek taib, ngan kerajaan negeri serawak, esp yayasan sarawak kerna spon kmk  belaja sitok. mun sikda kitak urg sik spons study kmk, ne lah mampu kmk merasa negara empat musim, ne lah mampu kmk merasa encerik masok harrods.

ne lah mampu in a million years anak seorang drebar, merentas benua, mendamba segulung ijazah. arap sampe ke ujong lah nak ooo.

terimak kasih banyak2 ibu pertiwi ku. kmk nang vangga jadi anak serawak. Insyaallah, segala ilmu yang kamek peroleh sitok, akan kmk curah ngan semua anak watan kita (termasoklah ilmu loba ngesep).

IMG_3944e and lastly ne lah mampu kmk beroleh PRADA spring summer 2010 (sale bah, mur-mur aj). jangan ada yg terasa uols. aihh agik juak. 

Wassalam.

Wednesday 7 July 2010

that's it

Assalamualalaikum,

yaaahh hevatt ndak finale season 2. high drama, panas, kontroversi. yalah nama dunia artis. ada urg nyokong siti, ada urg nyokong kak pah. ada urg minat madonna, ada urang minat lady gaga. kesimpulannya masing2 minat sik sama, pendapat sik sama, view sik sama. tp semua entitled to their own opinion, have the right to be pissed off, have the right to be mad, have the right to be emo, have the right to be apa jak. kitak urg nak bertelanjang depan pc, lekek2 tetak pun sik da urg melarang.

so what can we all do? respect. ya jaklah. eh kelak sikda kitak urg ingat lagik. masing2 dah bahgia. dah move on.

anyway, we had joy, we had fun, we had season in the sun. makseh sama2 tetak, sama2 emo, sama2 ngansa, sama2 ngerepak ngan miak nama oon. its been an emotional journey.

so, curtain finally closing for season 2 of miak nama oon (apa ko ingat glee, gossip girl jak ada tukar season?? oon sik mok kalah)

season 3? sik tauk lagik, mun kitak urg gik rajin mok nengar kerepak aku, mun kitak urg gik rajin mok nengar saduk aku. mun kitak urg gik rajin mok nengar susei loba aku. Insyaallah, adalah oon kembali.

but now, rileks jak dolok, sabar lok, tahan jak nyawa kitak urg. sik lamak gik kita tok nak posa. pasang niat tamat tarawih, qatam quran ok!

see you when i see you!

Wassalam.

Tuesday 6 July 2010

Dear kitak udik

Dear kitak,

Lamak kamek mikir nak reply ka sik. Tp memandangkan its not that hard to guess sapa yang dikelakar ktk ya, kmk reply jak la. I think I have the right to tell my side of story. Plus kmk sikda la blog famous mcm ktk nak..so mek numpang ruangan komen tok la.

Anyway, ktk cerita sik lengkap. Ada certain part yg ktk missing. Contohnya part bila ktk ajak mek bergerek for first time and second time, I said NO. Why? Because I know this thing will turn out to be like this someday. And because kmk cuma suka ktk setakat kwn jak bah. When your bestfriend keep asking over and over again plus tyk time birthday gik ya, patut ka kamek madah sik??? There s no harm in trying tapi mun mala kenak press, bila jwb phone ktk merajuk, kakya post benda pelik2 dlm blog, dont u think Ive had enough?

Right now kmk nang pissed off. Now that everything's out in the open let me start by saying this.. I dont care if u wanna write your whole life on your blog, but dont simply involve other people's personal life just to get hits! And to get sympathy. Next time learn to be a man and said anything straight to my face. Not answering my calls then posting shit on your blog seems like a coward to me. Mun sikmok jaga hati kamek pun, jaga hati parents kamek, adik kamek maca blog ktk. Jaga hati adik kamek. Camne rasa mun family ktk kenak anok??? Kita kenal lamak, parent ktk dah mcm family, now semua tok dah tarnish. Kita semua tukar jadi strangers balit. Bena sik?

Back to the story, I know you seems like the perfect BF to some of your readers, but trust me everyone has flaws. Semua urg kesian dgn ktk. Mun kamek sik tauk apa yg terjadi, kamek pun akan kesian sampe beraik mata. Oh ya..pahal mek pande berubah o..mungkin ka kerna lelaki lain. EKKKKK wrong. The answer is simple. Sebab ktk berubah dolok. Dr org laki yg turun pasar make baju Polo T and Bermuda pants berambut pendek kakya pande make seluar fit, jeans tek low cut, mun dudok nampak burit. Kakya make baju kecik, hanging konon2 tek ala2 Chris Martin. Ko ingat org di Emart kesah ka ko sepasang baju dgn Chris Martin??? Kakya obsessed dgn Leona Lewis. Trust me, part ya nang kmk inggar. As a guy, u should know better how to act like a normal guy. Sik perlu nak berlebih2 dalam kehidupan seharian. Tang sederhana jak. Kmk suka org yang simple sbb kita semua start dr org simple jak. Org biasa..then suddenly bila ktk di UK pande nak tukar jadi someone else yang totally different fr the original u. Kakya obsess dgn barangan mewah, maok make wallet Prada and so on. Tolongla hidup di dunia realiti. Benda2 mcm ya cuma artis jak mampu. Ataupun mun duit ko banyak. Tapi mun terkepung2 meli barang ya make duit biasiswa kerajaan, pls la..ada banyak gik benda lain penting lam dunia tok.

And I want to set one thing straight. There s no such thing as the other guy. Kamek kenal fiance mek since 3 years ago as friend of another friend. Kamek duak cuma rapat and went out on our first date on 17.1.2010. Plus kitak tek baruk officially single?? Kamek ingat bkn kita dah break time birthday ktk last year? Are u really that delusional????

And next time mun nak post benda2 yang mungkin menyakitkan hati org lain think twice. I know your parent and they didnt raise u to be like that. So now we're sooooo over as in no more friends, no more connections. Wish u all the lucks in the world and I definitely agree with what your friends said, you definitely deserve better than me. Kamek berdoa ktk success and I mean it. Take care.

Chow!

Dear kitak udik,

jaohhh di hati kamek nak nyakit ati kitak, lagik la your famili. kmk kenal dah sidak, ooo buah hati. eh sikda terus nak nyakit ati sidaknya. nang sikda teruss.

kmk cerita ya sbb kmk frust, yalah mun urg frust kadang2 sik pikir pun apa2 consequences. tp rasa kmk sik perlu kitak nak meradang. besalah urg bergerek kakya break. mesti ada rasa ala2 sorang nyalah sorang. n kmk sikda pun lalek nak increase hits kah apa ka benda. eh sik ku lalek. hits ya merik duit aku kah?? nan ado.

pasal cerita kmk sik lengkap kah. that i don't know. ya belah kmk. rasa kmk camya. rasa ktk maybe lain. tp malaslah nak melarat benda tok. but i wanted to say this, i'm not asking or forcing. cepat kitak lupak oo. n rasa kmk kitak sikda madah NO. nang sikda. kmk ingat. at that time it was mutual. kitak kol kmk gik the next day, nak confirm this thing.

n i don't involve other people personal life. it is my life dear. my view. and i am very careful not to hurts others. n kmk xda pun mentioned nama sapa2.

n kmk xda nganok famili kitak rasa kmk. iboh la mentioned family indah oo. kmk suka parents kitak, famili kitak, anak buah kitak. really warm. maybe that's the reason i am attracted to you kali.

perfect bf? ooh jaoh sekali. sbb ya kmk madah. kmk attracted ngan kitak pun sbb kitak terimak kmk seadanya. sbb kmk sik perfect. sik kedak urg laki lain. n mun kitak madah kmk berubah sbb PRADA, baju chris martin segala ya. maybe di luar jak. dlm kmk maseh sama jak. pasal leona lewis, sikdalah ku obses, aku suka nagga nya jak. luguk mek duak sama. albumnya pun aku sik terbeli.

as a guy i should now how to act like a normal guy. mmm yalah kali. balit kmk UK maybe berubah sikit pesen. dah kitak sik suka, so apalah kmk molah. n sikdalah ku obses barang mewah. ada rejeki ku beli lah. sikdalah sampe aku tok kebulur. n yes kmk make duit biasiswa. so? kmk rasa ya my prerogative.

tapi yalah, mun urg dah sik suka, sik suka juak nak. tp that is fine with me. sbb ya kmk mintak break at first place, kmk paham kitak dah sikda rasa papa gik ngan kmk. kmk dpt rasa bah. sik perlu nyalah PRADA.

the other guy? kmk rasa sikda terus kmk mentioned pasal the other guy. kmk sik lalek pun. kmk pro jak hal tok. kita bukan nikah, kita bukan bertunang. besalah masa begerek masa kita nak kenal pasangan. mun sik sesuai carikla urg lain nak. im ok with that. kmk sik la lalek, mun dah kitak ngan urg lain. of kos kmk sedih, of kos family mek rasa kecewa. tp sidak ok jak. lagikpun kita blom official apa2 pun nak. lagikpun sikda gilak urg tauk pasal kita duak, as you requested. boh riso.

am i delusional??? best jak kitak molah statement camya oo?? rasa cam aku tok pathetic gilak. kmk madah kmk officially single sbb kmk dah berhenti berharap. yajak. so kmk dah tauk kitak tunangan urg. kmk sik ngarap apa2 lagikla. kmk pun ada pride juak koh.

pasal komen2 sidak2 pembaca2 blog. besalah. sidak sik kenal kitak, sidak sik kenal kmk. of koz sidak akan mujok2, madah kata2 perangsang. standard lah ya. i deserve someone better, bla bla, bertemu jodoh bla bla bla. sikkanlah sidak nak madah. oon kau lah salah!!

n lastly kmk rasa sik perlu pasal kmk madah semua benda tok alu nak sikda connections segala. alu nak delete facebook. kuching kecik jak. berapa byk musuh nak kitak polah?? polah jak cam biasa. dah 8 tahun kenal, sbb benda tok alu nak sikda connections. kmk sik kisah pun kitak tunang kah, nikah kah, mun kitak nyeruk, kmk datang jak. tp mun kitak berkeras sik maok berkwan kah apa lagik. so what can i do.

n kamek sik paham kenak kitak perlu reply negative kedak ya. sepatutnya kmk yang emo2. at least kitak ada urg dah ngan kitak nak. kamek masih juak katok2 sorang2. rileks la k.

n lastly kmk wish happiness ngan kitak. kmk really mean it. bukan kmk playing good cop or anything. just kmk nang wish kitak happiness. and i really hope jangan sbb benda miak kecik bergerek ntah papa tok alu putus kawan. sik best alu.

dahla kmk nak tutup buku dah tok. sik best blog tok alu masok cerita kisah percintaan sik jadi. kmk kadang2 lupak blog kmk selalu di baca urg. yalah ngeretes jak tangan ku naip apa yang ku pikir.

Wassalam.

Sunday 4 July 2010

Dear kitak

Assalamualaikum,

Dear kitak,

harap kitak sehat di samping orang yang tersayang. sori. dah 6 bulan lebih kita sik ngelakar. yalah dah rasa lamak gilak, jadi rasa awkward kmk nak madah papa. bukan niat kmk nulis tok nak nyaik sapa2. lebih2 lagik kitak. kmk nulis tok nak madah rasa ati kmk, so that i can move on. get this over with. this may be wrong and you may not like it, but i find this comforting.

kita lamak dah kawan. kmk ingat gik kita rapat pun masa dah abis2 our uni days. masa uni days, kmk hanya nagga kitak dr jaoh, sayup2 gitu. kitak hot, so in. and every guys wanna be your friend. geng2 kmk org sapalah,  muka meher, muyas. so hi hi bye bye jak masa ya nak.

but kmk ingat gik first time kita keluar sama. 3-4 org gia rasa kmk. after that meeting, my friend madah kitak suka berkwan ngan kmk. lucu, lawak, ada jak idea. kitak sik sangkak kmk gia sbb dr jaoh kitak nagga kmk pendiam jak. yalah mun ramei2 gilak, kmk akan jadi a bit reserve. sik ngeluar true colors. anyway that starts it all.

start kita bekerja, kita pande rapat. not that gf, bf thing. just rapat. kmk rasa comfortable ngan kitak. and i hope you do feel the same. kmk rasa kmk boleh cerita apa2 dgn kitak.

dlm 5 tahun kita berkwn cam2 berlaku. tp kita tetap berkawan nak. friends come and go tapi kitak masih juak ada. masing2 kita bercerita love life masing2. lom gik masok cerita kmk maduk kitak lah (read: dolphin. sampe kinek tok, mun mek ngingat cerita ya, kmk senyum sorang). sorang bersaduk gerek sorang. tp honestly mek madah benalah. mun kitak bercerita pasal gerek kitak kah apakah. kmk pande rasa jeles indah. siklah jeles bena2. ala2 jeles 10 % gitulah. masa ya kmk sik terpikir pun  akan jadi something between us. na’alah2 inses nak. ndakku pande.

and then kmk dpt offer kerja baru, 2007. so kmk terpaksa transfer btu. dlm semua kwn2 kmk kitak jak yang kmk rasa melarang bena2 kmk accept offer ya. nang alu meradang nak kmk pindah bintulu. tp apa boleh buat. kmk kenak pergi juak. i have to do something with my career, with my life.

masa kmk d btu. to tell you honestly. dah kita jaoh. kmk pande rasa lain ngan kitak. pande rasa suk indah. maybe jaoh kali nak. kmk rasa rindu as bestfriend kali bah.

kakya kmk dapt offer nyambong belajar d UK tok. 3 tahun bukan masa yang sekejap nak. anyway kmk tepaksa fly juak. my first year, you cannot imagine how lonely i was. sunyek gilak2. mala jak ngansa, meroi ngan dik pun. the first 2 months dah rasa nak balit.

and that when i start thinking more of our relationship. kita salu chat. so stat sia lah dah kuch2 hota hey rasa kmk. kmk heran kmk sik pernah terfikir before tok. dah kmk pikir benar. this could work. kmk rasa kitak terimak kmk seadanya. yalah kmk bukan cam urg laki lain. sidak lain macho, cool, pande bertukang. kmk tok, boh kata main bol, nang sik penauk, paduhal maradonna tek main pake argentina dolok marek. kmk ingat itali. voleyy. yalah dah bukan jiwa kmk ke sia. ne lah nak molah nak.

actually kwn lain byk madah ngan kmk.

“kenak ko sik couple ngan nya jak, ngenak bah kitak duak”

“eh ndak ku pande, dah rasa adik beradik mek duak, inses!”

tp dah kmk di oversea tok. dah kmk rasa jaoh ngan kitak. lain dah rasa.

so dgn sikda rasa malu nya kmk proposed

oon: i need to tell you something

kitak: what deng?

oon: this is really important, i don't want to mess thing up

kitak: kmk rasa kmk tauk apa kitak nak padah, better kitak pikir bena2 lok sebelum kitak madah, sebelum anything happen

oon: kmk dah pikir bena2, kmk rasa kmk nak madah juak, kmk sik kisah kitak ok kah sik, mun sik ok, sik apa. kmk ok jak

kitak: ok padah lah

oon: why don't we give it a go

kitak: mmmmm. ok lets do it.

oon: that’s great

kitak: upgrade lah kinek tok. iboh ada rasa awkward lagik k

oon: of koz, thanx deng

kitak: sigek jak pintak kmk. iboh padah sapa2 dolok. keep it between us jak k

oon: yes, whatever you say dear

kitak ingat sik video clip tok.

if you love someone, just say it, right there, out loud

otherwise, the moment just passes you by

that is the reason i give it a go. when i think about it. i do love you. more than a friend.

n lekak ya, friendship and love bloom. sik sangkak, my girlfriend would be my girlfriend. rindok kmk masa ya. hati berbunga. wpun kitak madah iboh padh urg. tp kmk gago juak bersusei ngan urg lain. ngan kwn kmk sit0k. boh riso, sidak sik kenal pun kitak.

i like those feeling. rasa cam mun rasa tensi2, ada kawan yg boleh telepon n bercerita n will be comforting you. yalah kmk rasa adanya ktk. wpun jaoh kmk cayak this will work. n i really looking forward for our future together.

tapi, kmk sangkak cerita tok cerita cinta antara benua rupa nya drama natasya.

kmk rasa kitak makin berubah. cam lain dah. at some point. kitak sik kol kmk. kmk kol kitak sik kol balit. busy lah. cam2 alasan jak kitak berik. n then kitak cam bergaut jak mun berkelakar ngan kmk. tauk sik kitak masa ya mk mmg perlu kktak. kmk tenseion benar that time. cam2 lah pikir kmk. tp yalah  kmk jaoh. kmk nak molah apa nak. so biar jakla. sori mun kmk mala ngerepak. bercarik ngan kitak. that means i care. ya jaklah.

so sampe masa after setahun setangah kmk balit kuching. kmk  mmg looking forward nak jumpa ktak. kangen gitu.

tp sampe kmk d malaysia, kitak cam lain jak. kmk rasa kita duak cam sik begerek. kmk benar2 hampa masa kmk d malaysia. kitak cam sik looking forward nak jumpa kmk. kmk tauk ktak busy, tp kmk jarang balit bah. apa salah nya kitak mintak cuti nak iboh 5 hari, sehari la cukup. kitak sik pikir pun gia. weekend pun kitak sikda masa nak spend ngan kmk. aok km tauk ktak busy. tp kmk tok mintak sikit jak masa dari kitak.

kmk ingat gik ktk madah kmk, kmk ajak kitak keluar, date lah konok tek. terus kitak madah. boring kitak duak ajak. keluar ramei2 lah. kmk rasa ralat gilak. kmk nak spend masa ngan kitak , kitak rasa nak avoid kita duak keluar.

bena2 kmk madah kitak. dlm tempoh sebulan kmk d kuching. kmk benar2 kecik ati. kecik ati gilak2. tp kmk pendam jakla. sik ngapa oon, biar jak dolok. perasaaan ko ajak ya, too needy. yalah.

sampe lah 3 hari gik kmk nak balit UK. ngak 2 kali jak kitak duak jak keluar, ya pun bergaut n tiba2 ada urg lain join. mmmm. so dahla. kmk rasa. this will never work. this is not just my feeling. maybe kitak dah sik rasa apa yang kitak rasa dolok. dah berubah. at last kitak confront madah. kitak sik tauk gik dah camne rasa berbf. kitak madah sikda beza ada bf ngan sikda bf. kitak madah kmk sikda mun kitak perlu kmk.

dah kitak madah gia kmk paham n be a gentlemen about this. kmk paham, sebenarnya kitak dah sikda ati gik ngan kmk. tauk kmk bah. maybe kitak malu ngan kmk kali nak. ndak la kmk tauk.

during my 28th birthday. dlm kereta. jalan nait bukit sebelah church padang sentral, sebelah post opis.

oon : i thing we are done. what do you think

kitak: yalah, kmk rasa gia juak. kita raincheck jak dolok. klk kitak abis benar2 bok kita revisit agik our relationship

oon: ok lah if that what you say. kmk rasa kita duak move on our way jak dolok

kitak: yalah kmk rasa gia juak. tp ktk ok kah? kmk sik mok kitak sedih2. aritok birthday kitak bah.

oon: eh sikdalah. kmk ok bahh. senyum jak kmk tok koh deng.

what do you think? kitak ingat kmk ok kah masa ya. tuhan jak tauk rasa ati kmk. jaoh kmk di UK kangen nak jumpa kitak.

sebenarnya masa ya kmk harap. kitak madah iboh, kamek arap kitak madah we could try again. kamek harap kitak madah we could change. but instead. kitak aok juak.

n one little point i forget to tell you. actually kmk balit, plan kmk nak nunang kitak. tp sikpalah…

kmk sikdalah nak bencik kitak kah apa. kmk adult. boleh pikir. perasaan urg boleh berubah. so what can i do. sik leh dipaksa nak. kmk harap kitak happy jak. honestly.

sejak ya, sampe kinek tok kitak sik bekelakar lagik. sorry kmk sik nyaut a couple of your calls bulan2 yg lepas. sikpat dolok rasa kmk. sikpat dolok kmk ngr sora kitak. sori k, kmk sik sure kita msih sik boleh berkwn after that phase.

honestly kmk pikir. biar jak dolok. maybe klk kmk balit for good. terjalin kembali gitu nak. sikpalah oon. blom da jodoh masa tok. ne tauk klk nak.

tp sampe sia jaklah

adik kmk msg

adik: aih, nya dah tunang kah. aihhh bena kah bang?

oon: aihh apa??? ne mek tauk. mek sikda ngr papa pun?

adik: bukak kitak FB, gambarnya bertunang

oon: ooo bena duhal. mmm sikpalah. baguslah. dah sampe jodohnya bah

adik: aihh kmk pulang emo!!

bulak lah kmk madah kmk sik ngansa gik.

yalah, jodoh kitak sampe dolok. so kmk terimak jaklah. kitak pernah jadi bestfren kmk. kmk harus happy untuk ktk. gine2 pun. i may not know that guy. but my thought will always be with you. i wish both of you will be happy always. bena tok. (terus pose2 leona lewis berlagu happy)

Wassalam.

p/s: Hi Lisa Surihani, OK kmk dah officially single kinek tok.